Posted in Inspirations, Parenting - Raising Wee Men, Scotland, tagged Avonlea Q Krueger, Christian Parenting, Happy Little Sigh, happylittlesigh, Jet Lag, SAHM, Scotland, Sleep, Sleep Deprivation, Sleep Deprivation with a Newborn, Sleepless Nights with a Newborn, Stay at Home Mom, winter cold on March 6, 2015|
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I could sleep one thousand sleeps.
One thousand all together, my own sleeping beauty tale.
The erratic sleeping habits of a new born
along with the lingering effects of jet lag
and a late winter cold
have left me feeling that I’ll never be rested again.
Not ever in my life.
But I will (I do hope!),
and life will resume a normal pace.
Whatever normal is,
and for however long it lasts.
Because I never seem to know for very long
what tomorrow’s normal might be.
There have been times of sameness . . .
My college years, with the grueling cycle of classes, homework, and my job.
But then came that semester in Scotland,
one mild winter night,
and my world became bigger than I’d ever dreamed.
Three years later came our wedding and I was back in Scotland,
and after setting up house in Inverness,
there came a bit of sameness again.
Me teaching, John working,
and whatever it is that children-less couples do on evenings and weekends
(someone remind me of that again!?!?).
Then came our first cottage.
A baby.
And since the Professor’s birth there has been that sameness that you’ll know about if, like me, you’re a stay at home mum.
Changing, feeding, bathing, dressing, bedtime, naptime, playtime,
the endless mopping up of spilled drinks.
But with a trans-Atlantic move stuck in the middle.
A new life.
A new business.
And all the strangeness of finding out who I am
as an adult
in the country of my birth.
But life always settles, when it can, into sameness and routine.
And I’m here again,
after four months in Scotland
and the birth of Little Bear,
my fourth son,
trying to find normal again.
For however long it lasts.
But I’m learning not to rely on “normal” to give me peace.
And I’m learning to enjoy all the sameness,
all the everyday moments
I could so easily take for granted
or even despise.
Because real peace cannot be based on the temporary
and it’s all temporary.
It can only be based on the eternal.
The one and only
Eternal One.
For all my unknowns
and all my tomorrows
are not unknown to Him.

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